I tried too hard on this project. I put a lot of myself into it. And I don't know why I do it? Why do I keep torturing myself? I don't understand who I'm trying so hard for? I don't feel like my game has a place in this world.

I am truly grateful to everyone who has responded. To everyone who wrote a comment. To everyone who replied to me. Thank you for caring about my project. But it's not enough.

I doubt that I can continue to give so much of myself alone and end up struggling with the question of whether this project will become something more. I understand that I, as the author, am the first one who should believe in the project. The problem is that I have stopped believing.

Maybe something is wrong with my game? But what is wrong with it? It should be better? But what is wrong with it? I put very little effort into it? But that's not true! Then why do I see lower quality projects have a greater chance of success? Where am I wrong?

What am I still unable to see? That the world is full of crap? I've known that since childhood. At least I'm glad I'm not depressed about everything that happens to me. For some reason, I'm writing all this in a devlog, where I'm supposed to describe the innovations of my game.

I participated in the Jam. Yoohoo! It was nice to do something distracting. If you want to play, the game is called "Sappthea". If anyone is reading this.

I really need answers. Will everything change? Should I give it some time? Will my game eventually get more attention? Should I just keep doing it? Who would answer me, who would give me guarantees...

Thanks to everyone who is here, thanks to Johnny Mind for still following me, it gives me a strange hope that all this is not in vain.

To be continued...